Mommy Day 2013

Reflecting back on the years that passed while I prayed for a child and made every attempt to have one- only to be frustrated and crushed as I would start my period again or have to adhere to some new med routine just to have one... I feel beyond blessed to sit here in my recliner with the backdoor open- feeling the breeze and hearing the laughter of my two miracle babies playing back there. They are singing and laughing and vividly imagining worlds far from here. They both have on their rain boots and Logan is carrying his new umbrella even though the sun is beaming down. They have been having parades filled with song and now they are back on the swing set up in the clubhouse together. They are sitting "criss cross applesauce" and looking through the cracks in the floor like it is the best idea they have ever had.  I hear Aidyn Kate teaching Logan about daisy heads and ticks, lol. I heard her say, "see brother you can always go on a new adventure and have new discoveries." Wow, I think she might be smarter than me:) I need to take that advice in life. But you know, today on Mother's Day 2013. I want to take some of the credit for that attitude. I hope that I can continue to be the kind of mother that I desire to be. My desire is to teach them to be happy and content in most any circumstance but I don't think I have modeled that very well. I am grumpy from work most days- exhausted by too many obligations that there is no time left for simple playtime and a life of grace and joy. Funny how my actions are so opposed to my desires. How did I let that happen?!So today, on Mother's Day 2013 I want to start a new tradition. Instead of a "new year's day resolution" I am going to use my Mother's days for a "Mothering resolution". Today I choose to use this year to get my priorities aligned so that I can spend the rest of my years doing what I desire the most. Being a hands-on dedicated Mommy. I hope with God's help I can get my finances in line over this next year so that I will no longer be enslaved to my job but use my talents to enable us to do what is most important. BE together more. Go places more. Adventure and discover more. I need to make this happen now before it is too late. I hope I can accomplish this all in one year before my Aidyn Kate is too cool for me, lol. I will blog over this next year with updates on how things are going for me. The main idea is that I will be able to pay off the debt, make extra income from side earnings, and find the joy that I have so easily allowed others to take from me and my family. If you are a Mommy out there reading today. Don't let others rob you from the most noble and important purpose in your life right now. Raising up Godly children. INVEST now in your family. Why did I think before that doing this was some sort of sabotage to my career, to my "power". Because that my friends is a tactic of the enemy- the devil would love to steal the parent away from the children that will be the generation of tomorrow. What a powerful ploy indeed. Where will our children be when we are gone? Who will they be? Who will they love?  Raise them Momma! Do it well and it will be the greatest accomplishment of your life.

Thank you Lord for giving me the desire of my heart in my children- continue to bless my family please. Keep us healthy and together and focused on You! Help me on through the next 365 days of spending less and investing more into the futures of my children. Thank you for steering me in the direction that you did this year. It has been a treacherous journey and I have stumbled many times. Thank you for helping me stand each time I fell. Thank you for sending Christian women to my aide when I thought that I could go no further. You have blessed me beyond what I deserve. I love you.