FromBonnietoMommy

Still thinking about all this tragedy tonight. I continue to read so many posts, tweets, etc from people desperate to state their opinions as to how this verifiess that a caring and loving God could not exist. I have had so many moments in my life where I have questioned His existence myself. I want to be transparent and real here. I was raised to never question but instead to have faith. Faith- the hope and belief in the unseen. I attended church throughout my life and checked all the boxes of religion. I participated in worship but felt empty and devoid of all the love, grace, and mercy that I kept expecting to somehow "kick in" with me. I prayed, and written journals of all my daily gratitudes, I felt empty and lost. I kept a mental checklist of my shortcomings and felt that these were the reasons that I didn't "feel" His presence more in my life. I noted carefully all my sins and confessed most of them on a daily basis. I publicly repented at church if I had...

I am so grief stricken over the lose of life that occurred recently that I felt I had to speak about it. I am unsure if any crime could be more heinous than gunning down helpless, terrified, innocent, babies. You know- I realize that many of us do not, and will never share beliefs and opinions concerning politics, or religion, or gun control, or anything for that matter, but I have to say that we should all share in the belief that this was senseless, horrific, traumatic, and unimaginable. I wonder why we take to social media outlets to promote political agendas etc. If I had lost a child on the day of this massacre I would be angered by what people are talking about. I just can't wrap my mind around what the loss of a child would be like. I have day dreamed of the future's of my children since I knew that they were conceived. I have high hopes that they will be successful and happy, loved, devoted to Christ, and most of all content. I imagined their appearances, their personal...