FromBonnietoMommy

Ok, just a random post to inform the general public that I am 6 months pregnant today. I am so thrilled. Every single day that this little gal sticks in there is an accomplishment. In just two more weeks she will have the possibility of survival outside of the womb! Granted in a NICU, but she could make it on her own. If all her kicks and twirls in there are any indication of her personality- she is gonna be a feisty little bugger:) Keep her in your prayers guys. Aidyn Kate is on her way to being in my arms. If you could have seen her the other day on u/s. She looked so huge. Plus, she was still sucking that thumb and kicking those little legs like a wild woman. Maybe you guys should be praying for me- I might never sleep again LOL

The wedding is over, and one of my finals is too. But, that leaves one more final to go before I am done. I am about to start it in just a minute. Anyway, I don't really know why I am blogging tonight- I have nothing interesting to say. Just that today has been a really emotional day for me. I have been really tearful all day and I am not sure why. I just have all these emotions and they are all over the place. I am sure it is hormonal, but it still makes me feel like crap. I just want to have a great life you know. Who doesn't want that?!? I don't understand how or why anyone would want to go about their daily lives on auto-pilot all the time. Never feeling too much of anything. I have always been somewhat "hypersensitive" emotionally. I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. The older I get the more comfortable I am with it. But, I don't know why other people are so uncomfortable with it. I don't know why people don't care for each other. ...

So, tonight was the rehearsal dinner and I thought that it went really well. I think everyone is spastic with anxiety but other than that it was great. I am excited to have the wedding tomorrow, but I am worried about how I am gonna feel all day. I get tired really really easy with this heart thing going on. We are stashing a stool up there in case I get swoony during the ceremony. Do you know how mortified I would be to pass out during the wedding. Plus, Britney and Mom would die. But, that's what the stool is there for. I also am excited to get the wedding over with so I don't have to stress about fitting into that dress anymore. I won't be as worried about my weight after the wedding is done. So you know where I will be at the reception- the dessert table!!!!! I can't wait to blog the details. Wish us luck!

ok- so I am officially done with the focus session. I passed:) I am so relieved! We are leaving in the morning at 4 am to drive the 12 hour journey back to bama. I am just glad to be through with this. It has been so much fun though. I am glad me and dad got this opportunity to hang out just the two of us. I have enjoyed that so much. I have the greatest dad- I have always known that but this has just proven it more. We always have gotten along really well. I know why now, cause we have a lot in common. So, back to R'ville in the morning bright and early. Good luck to us! Btw... this is another experience that Aidyn Kate has had in utero- ice storm in MO, plus a special trip with Papa Doug.

Okay- well just found out after being up since 6am that the university is closing for the day. On another note, the entire airport is also grounded, and there is not much driving going on around here today. Thank goodness for the gas logs in the room:) I am really bad to go stir crazy though. If I were home I would love being snowed in, but here it kinda sucks. I guess I will have most of the day to study, but who wants to do that!?!? I am just sitting here typing and looking out the window at all the snow and ice. It really puts me in the X'mas spirit, but the best part of X'mas is family. Unfortunately, the rest of our family is over 12 hours away. I wish I would have tried to use a Dr's excuse and stayed home, but I just wanted to get this over with so badly. Now, I will probably have to plan to come back again later on to do all the check off's. That just means making work more mad, and losing more money. My student loan balance is going to be more than my mortgage...

Wow, it is so early for me to be up. But, good news. I got in touch with the girl that is picking me up for school. She will be here in a little over an hour. I am excited but I am so nervous! I never used to get so nervous about things. I don't know what my problem is. I mean I have always been high strung, but used to it was a nervous "energy" now it is more of a nervous "panic". I feel like I should have tried to get out of all this after all with a Dr's excuse:) Anyway- we are here and I need to do this. I am going down to get some breakfast and feed me and this baby. We are starving!!! Which is something of a more normal feeling here lately. I will keep everyone posted this evening. Go go gadget nurse brain!

Okay- so after my diagnosis of episodic SVT, the doc didn't want me flying or staying alone. So we changed a lot of plans and my sweet daddy drove  me up here to Missouri today. It took us 12 hours! When we left home it was 74 degrees outside. Here on our arrival it is 20 degrees. Plus, we are in the middle of a winter storm warning for the next couple of days. There is at least 6 inches of ice out there. I can't believe how cold it is BRRRR. Anyway, so tomorrow I start my focus session for completion of these two classes I am in right now. After I get this all over with I will be half way through with getting my nurse practitioner degree and having my master's in nursing. Yeah!! Anyway, so after all this driving and not being stressed, I am now freaking out because I don't know why I didn't realize it until now, but I haven't prepared at all. You know that there will be those nerds that come with everything memorized like we are supposed to, but I have had some...

Well, after I had some "episodes" with my heart racing. I went to the Dr yesterday and they placed me on a cardiac monitor. They explained all the rules about wearing it, and how to transmit my data from it over the telephone to a telemetry tech. I think that they really weren't taking me seriously at all when I told them I was a nurse and I knew that something was up. Well, the nurse of course was unimpressed with my complaints and looked at me like I was some hysterical first time pregnant girl that was turning into some kind of a hypochondriac. Then last night while laying on the couch watching house hunters on HDTV my heart started racing away like before. It was so fast I was feeling short of breath and dizzy too. Ok I am an RN- I am in graduate school, I know how to check a pulse! Why didn't anybody listen to me earlier in the day!?!?! Anyway, the monitor picked my heart rate up at 175bpm. That is fast for anyone who doesn't know... My usual baseline is in t...