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Tonight I will write my blog directly to you Lesley.
It has been a month and I am astounded and shocked as much today as I was on my birthday last month to hear that you were so violently taken away. Tonight like most nights I held your babies close to my heart and I missed you. I know that we only had a few short years together on this earth. I think it speaks to how special you are that you had such an incredible impact on my life. I miss our talks. I miss us sharing stories about being moms and about our moms, lol. I miss the sound of those stupid clipboards on counter that I used to hate so much. I dreamed about us seeing someone at the clinic together and you were speaking Spanish to help me and I understood every word you said and you told me how good I was doing. How is it that you are gone? I know that there is nothing that I can do about any of this now. But I can love your babies. I will love them as much as they will let me. If it is in my power to help I will.  I can't believe the loss I have felt this past 5-6 months, but this is the worst of it all. I love you. I remember you tonight. I pray for your family tonight. I pray for strength tonight. I pray for peace and understanding. You have left my life for a time and I look forward to the day we will meet again.
 
 
Descanse en paz mi dulce amiga. Te amo a Leslie.
 

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