Missing you...

Well, I have been contemplating this blog for months now. But I was rocking Logan last night and had so many things on my mind that I wanted to share with you. I know that there were things that we could talk about that only you and I could share. I miss you. As the tears ran down my cheeks I felt that you were near. I hope so. Things haven't been so easy and I wish that I could pick up the phone and tell you about it. I wanted you to see my babies grow older. I wanted them to know you more. I wanted you to see what I do with my life and know that you played a big role in it. I wanted to learn how to sew from you and cry on your shoulder when I was frustrated with issues I couldn't talk to anyone else about. I love you and I know that you know that still. Wish that I could talk with you now. I can't believe how many times I wish to tell you things and feel so awkward and shocked all over again when I realize that I no longer can. I hope that you are at peace. I hope that all the good has outweighed any bad. I hope I can see you again. I love you.


"Sometimes solutions aren't so simple, sometimes goodbye is the only way. The sun will set for you-and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in grey, and the sun will set for you. Sometimes goodbyes the only way."

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