Well, for the past several days now we have been sick, Sick, SICK at this house. Aidyn Kate has been diagnosed with reactive airway disease so we have been doing breathing treatments and pushing fluid and so on and so on. Unfortunately she caught her brother's bad cold that caused his 4th ear infection! So snot everywhere is an understatement. I can't believe that even through all this sickness how wonderful they have been. I can't begin to express the way that everyday is made complete through my children. There are times I wonder who I really was before I had my children. I feel that there was a void that I knew existed but had no idea the vastness of it. I look at them sometimes, like last night.... and I don't care about a thing other than them. I say it so much here recently but I feel that the Lord is showing me the true meaning and feeling behind the words- "My cup runeth over". I have worked hard for many things in life so far. But nothing has rewarded me the way my children have. I feel so much love and so much peace when I am with them and they are content. There were so many days and nights that I cried out to the Lord to bring me a child. I wanted so badly to be a mother. Now they are sound asleep in their beds. How has this been given to me- so undeserving- but so grateful! As the humidifier buzzed and the snotty noses snored away my heart felt so full it could have exploded. I walked up the stairs to bed knowing that they loved me, depend on me, and feel safe and comforted by me. I know this is all I need. Even when days are long, and nights are longer and I feel so alone... I know that they are God's gift to me to make it through. My struggles, my fears, my loneliness- they are there everyday to fill the void. Once again, God shows his perfect timing. I don't know how I could live this life without them. #Sothankful
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