miracle day
So- All my blogs have been erased. Including the most precious one of all, the blog of Aidyn Kate's birth. I can't even begin to express the grief I have over losing this most precious record of her birth. But, I am going to give it my all to recreate some of it here. I know that the night before her birth I was anxious with anticipation over what to expect. Early morning would come so soon and before I knew it I would hold the most precious gift the Lord could give me, my answered prayer- the desire of my heart.
I know that it is hard to believe that we were running a tad bit behind schedule to get to the hospital and get checked in. Wade had to stop of course and get some coffee at a gas station, and he sarcastically reminded me that they couldn't start without me. Pardon me, I wanted to be on time and meet sweet Aidan Kate as soon as I could. I was scared about the unknown, whether my heart rate and blood pressure would tolerate the pain, how long it could possibly take to have her and all that could possible whirl about your mind related to delivering your first child. I had my two largest school books in tow for studying if there was a moment for that. We got checked in and I changed into the lovely hospital gown, settled in with the giant circular monitors on my belly, and tried to calm my pounding heart. I could feel her moving around- I knew she was excited too. I was having contractions when they hooked me up to the monitor and felt like it wouldn't take too long before we would look at each other face to face. They started the pitocin and it kicked things off to quite an aggressive start. Before long the contractions were close and painful. I was so lucky to have one of the most important ladies I have ever met by my side through my labor and delivery. A special nursing instructor along with her clinical student just happened to be present there that day- another special blessing! They coached my through some of the most difficult moments that day. Dr Wakefield came by and broke my water and then things were nearly unbearable. It wasn't long before I felt the need for some pain meds. By the time the anesthesiologist got there to help with the epidural, things were moving along pretty fast. I was already past 7 cm and he was having a hard time himself. The epidural pump wouldn't run right and the epidural wasn't taking anyway. So just in the nick of time Dr Wakefield graced us with his presence and we gave up on the epidural process and the pushing began. I can't remember exactly- but I think that I pushed like four times and there she was. The miracle of all miracles. My precious, baby girl. The answer to all my prayers, my entire life made right in one instant. How can the Lord bless us so? Even now, typing this a tears pour down my cheeks. The emotions are almost palpable surrounding such an amazing memory. The day that Bonnie became Mommy. I have never felt the deep sting of loneliness again. Two warrior girls brought face to face. We will move mountains you and I.
I know that it is hard to believe that we were running a tad bit behind schedule to get to the hospital and get checked in. Wade had to stop of course and get some coffee at a gas station, and he sarcastically reminded me that they couldn't start without me. Pardon me, I wanted to be on time and meet sweet Aidan Kate as soon as I could. I was scared about the unknown, whether my heart rate and blood pressure would tolerate the pain, how long it could possibly take to have her and all that could possible whirl about your mind related to delivering your first child. I had my two largest school books in tow for studying if there was a moment for that. We got checked in and I changed into the lovely hospital gown, settled in with the giant circular monitors on my belly, and tried to calm my pounding heart. I could feel her moving around- I knew she was excited too. I was having contractions when they hooked me up to the monitor and felt like it wouldn't take too long before we would look at each other face to face. They started the pitocin and it kicked things off to quite an aggressive start. Before long the contractions were close and painful. I was so lucky to have one of the most important ladies I have ever met by my side through my labor and delivery. A special nursing instructor along with her clinical student just happened to be present there that day- another special blessing! They coached my through some of the most difficult moments that day. Dr Wakefield came by and broke my water and then things were nearly unbearable. It wasn't long before I felt the need for some pain meds. By the time the anesthesiologist got there to help with the epidural, things were moving along pretty fast. I was already past 7 cm and he was having a hard time himself. The epidural pump wouldn't run right and the epidural wasn't taking anyway. So just in the nick of time Dr Wakefield graced us with his presence and we gave up on the epidural process and the pushing began. I can't remember exactly- but I think that I pushed like four times and there she was. The miracle of all miracles. My precious, baby girl. The answer to all my prayers, my entire life made right in one instant. How can the Lord bless us so? Even now, typing this a tears pour down my cheeks. The emotions are almost palpable surrounding such an amazing memory. The day that Bonnie became Mommy. I have never felt the deep sting of loneliness again. Two warrior girls brought face to face. We will move mountains you and I.
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