Life-

The wedding is over, and one of my finals is too. But, that leaves one more final to go before I am done. I am about to start it in just a minute. Anyway, I don't really know why I am blogging tonight- I have nothing interesting to say. Just that today has been a really emotional day for me. I have been really tearful all day and I am not sure why. I just have all these emotions and they are all over the place. I am sure it is hormonal, but it still makes me feel like crap. I just want to have a great life you know. Who doesn't want that?!? I don't understand how or why anyone would want to go about their daily lives on auto-pilot all the time. Never feeling too much of anything. I have always been somewhat "hypersensitive" emotionally. I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. The older I get the more comfortable I am with it. But, I don't know why other people are so uncomfortable with it. I don't know why people don't care for each other.  I know that one day I will be the patient lying in bed wondering when my last breath will be. Like all these sick people I take care of all the time. Anyway, I guess my point is -- why would anyone want to lay there and know that they have never felt anything and lost all opportunities to experience all that life has to offer? I don't want to waste my time here. I hate feeling this way. I feel alone and I'm frustrated.

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